There are pillows for your head, neck, body, knees and feet.
LADIES, I now introduce to you the Breast Pillow!!
To me this was like winning the lotto. I couldn’t resist a trial run after arriving home from work. I couldn’t feel any pain laying on my stomach!! This is a dream come true!! I could almost cry over it!!
I was able to find this pillow on Amazon.com. It’s called the Descansa Breast Pillow. This particular size is the Large – X Large measuring 19 x 11 x 3 inches to fit a C cup or Larger. I couldn’t believe it even existed and was very happy to have stumbled across it. 🙂
After spending a week in the hospital, I was finally released with a concoction of medications that would allow me to stay comfortable while continuing my recovery at home. I thought my stay at the hospital and the pain I was enduring was the worst thing that could be happening to me until my reality started setting in followed by depression.
I hate to admit it but it’s true, I have reached a new breaking point. I no longer feel as brave as you’ve all known me to be. I’ve become fearful of stepping into my day to day routines and not being able to complete them, unhappy with the way I look and the fact that nothing fits “the way it use to”, and disappointed in myself for letting this whole experience get the best of me.
You would think, having gone through this before, it would be a piece of cake to bounce back, but it hasn’t. This surgery and the transformation that came with it has been much harder to cope with.
I try with everything in me to smile and remember just how lucky I am, but a part of me can’t help but be angry, sad and hurt. I get frustrated by the tiniest sound and go from sweet to sour in seconds. It’s an emotional roller coaster that doesn’t seem to end.
As the swelling has gone down and my incision have healed, I’ve been able to become more familiar with the foreign objects inside me. The expanders feel so hard and stiff. I’m even noticing a difference in placement which makes me worried. “Did I do something to make it shift?” “Was it always like that?” “Did the Alloderm not take, causing my expander to slide down?”
I’ve been so careful and still have managed to over do it at times, causing more frustrations. I can honestly say that the one thing that keeps me sane are the pep talks and counseling I’ve received along the way from people who have gone through this or something similar. It’s a reminder that I’m not alone and that I’m not crazy.
I yearn to feel whole again, but for now, I can only take it one day at a time and hope that each day gets better…